Why?

So I wrote on my FB that my resolution for next year is to work towards pro. And I always hate being asked this question in general....

Why?

Why do I want to be pro? Well, it's easier to talk about the wrong reasons I am doing it. I'm not an attention whore, well, every girl likes attention and I do care how my hard work (or lack there of) comes out on stage. I'm not doing it to feel beautiful because I feel that anyways.

Can anyone really answer why? If we don't, does that mean our reason for doing something looks meaningless to others or it shows we lack reason? Does that show we don't care for the dance and are willy-nillying through it?

No. At least, that's my opinion.

When people ask me "why did you move to Japan?" The main base reason was "it was my dream". That was it. It was my dream and I'm still here in Japan. Of course I thought I could easily do music here and I tried but I ran into a lot of problems with that. In the end, I DID do music for 2 years and performed on stage. So I did achieve that dream.

As for belly dance. I'm making that dream up as I go. Someone told me I have to pay my dues but to that person, "paying your dues" applied to HER timeline. And her timeline did not work for me. I may have been learning for 2.5 years but I was doing basics for several years before.

Of course everyone has to and I feel I'm in that part of my dance life now. But I feel it's time for me to be serious. If I want to be pro in the future, why not start learning and training now?

I'm getting off track... Why? Why do I want to be pro? Because I do. I guarantee it's the same reason as every other professional. This is what I love to do. I love music, I love dancing, and I love entertaining people. My greatest joy is putting a smile on anyone's face.

I'm sure there's gonna be some commenter out there saying "what if no one smiles??? What then???" Well, sh*t happens and not everyone is gonna be into it. Also, if I could inspire someone to start belly dancing, that's great too.

When I was teaching English to 5th and 6th graders, my purpose was not to get them all to be BFF with English. If just one student came up to me and said "I want to learn English and be fluent!", then my job was done. I make things fun, entertain, and teach and if that inspires someone to do something (good of course), than that's my purpose for dancing.

So that's my why, I guess. To have fun, do what I love, and inspire someone to dance or do something that will bring them equal happiness.

If that's not a good enough why, then I don't know what is.